The new guy

Yay
I am so HAPPY
that i finally added this guy.

and we chat on facebook, awesome chat.
the way we chat r like Old friend's talks.
I love it.

Will post more about later.

This guy wakes my blog up. =)

BACK FROM FINAL EXAM

i didnot sleep well and sleep enough for past 2 weeks, I gotta prepare for my killing exam...

days went really terrible, i slept at 1am everyday and it went later n later when exam is really near. I surprisingly broke my past record, i slept at 5:15am b4 the last day of examination. and woke up at 7:00, test is on 8:30am.

ANYWAY, its all past...I wanna blast myself now!
Right after exam i went to Karaoke with my best buddies, then after that we watched REAL STEEL.

REAL STEEL! I never know that i will fall in love with robots thing, like, u know, i scream for the fights. I wonder, if TRANSFORMERS are of this type of robots too?


kay, today is the second day after exam.
I stay at college hostel, im not going back home.

So, 15 minutes ago i was at hostel cafe online. I bumped into a friend from college club...she'd bought tickets for a movie 2 hours later, so i asked her, DID YOU INVITE XXX (him)?

She said: NO...........He and AA (another girl, one of my friend in the same club) went to watch yesterday.


I ASKED HER: WHAT? THEY COUPLED UP?!! (of course with happy face)

so she said: YES YES! DONT kacau (kacau as in malay language: interrupt) them! hahaha.. (then she walked away)

Me....turning my face back to the screen...
with a sad song coincidently played on my earphone...
I feel a lil heartbroken.
A LITTLE BIT!

THIS IS WHO I AM.

I dont feel REALLLLLLLY SAD for things like that. I WONDER WHY???!!!

but this time i could feel a little uneasy feeling for like, 15 minutes, right until i compose this new post, i feel NO SAD. At 1st i do, i felt a bit disappointed...Its because I am slow n I took no action.

I AM ALWAYS THE PASSIVE ONE.

SO by now i think i should just end my story of HIM.
He is other's.

Im black today.

I wore black tshirt- the really black kind of tee to college.

actually i didnot dress myself properly today, 'cux i did not have the right mood to do so.
and that my besties saw me walking from far, she yelled, Hey Gangster!!

WTF. Don't YELL la please.

'cux i was rushing to 8am chem class so i look very ugly today.
and what i was hoping is DON'T LET HIM SEE MY HORRIBLE LOOK.
haha.

Of course, i was so blessed.


i found myself spending too much on food. All the time i m thinking of FOOD, Oh LORD...save me...from eating too much, i just need a lil control over myself.

cux this month i'll be attending my uncle n my cousin's wedding dinner, I suppose myself to out down my weight from now...so that i look better in my dress. hmmm. My relatives always comment on me when they meet me (we meet occasionally, like 2-3 months once) and what i heard was

"whoa, grown up already, can't recognise you!"

"so leng lui (pretty as in cantonese language), got boyfriend already?"

"you changed soo much (they sounded exaggerate)! so pretty!"

sighs.
I don't think so...what i can tell them is "oh, really? dont make me happy! im all the while SAME la. AFter this meal go back FAT already!" (followed by HAHAHA)


Im waiting for my new contact lens. the brown LACE pattern.

HE WAVED INFRONT OF MY FACE

Hahahhahahahaa...

yesterday spent my breaktime with my besties n few guys.
They started to be YELLOW to me nowadays, keep on telling yellow jokes...TO ME. how "bad" they are, HAHAHA.... They used to be very courteous, like, u know.




But i simply enjoyed it. =D




back to the breaktime....
We feel so bored n we decided to take some shots at a garden nearby.
So we walked there with one of the guy as photographer, with DSLR of course.
NICE SHOT...


Then today right.
I know i will meet him, i knew it, i just knew it. 'cux he has to walk to the place i went out, n i have to walk to the place he was in.


So, we met.


That was when i was busy crapping with my friend, i walked down along the staircase n i 'saw' his jeans (LOL HOW FUNNY IT IS, YES, JEANS) n he was walking up the stair I KNOW its him. (im trying to say tad i recognised him by his jeans)

Few seconds i was about to initiate a respond he 'kiddily' WAVED big at my FACE...

haha, how 'cute'!
BUT i didnot have advanced nervous system to be aware of that.
How i respond was just turning my head a 20 degree to the right to try to 'figure out' a thing from him, and SADLY, we didnot have any eye contacts 'cux of inertia, haha, unable to stop my walking feet.


So he made my day. hmmm.


Today i went for violin lesson.
and i met two girls, one chinese from hostel too, and one angel (yea she gives me an angel feeling) studying A level Art.
And i walked back to hostel with the chinese girl...she asked me whether i learnt violin before 'cux just now during lesson i looked so bonded and she is like, "Owhh, my shoulder.....so tired." i heard it, i was like, haha? Do i..?

then we reached hostel...
and i ordered a plate of fried rice + fried chicken (yea, FRIED, right tads why my pimples popped out)and it stupidly cost me 6.00

i rather go eat KFC!

Hmmm, exams are near n i dont wanna screw it 'cux i gotta maintain my scholarship.

...

Dislike acting "NVM" infront of my friends

My besties didnot celebrate my birthday...
'cux my birthday crushed with our test2's 1st day


but still, i feel VERY SAD for that...even until todaY...they didnot make any move with the reason BUSYING ON TEST.....what an 'important' test.

YET, they kept on telling me 'i feel so guilty of not celebrating yr bday leh' 'you see,i planned for the others but i did nothing for u, my best friend....im so guilty...'

OKAY. Its OKAY........................

Anyway, i didnot really have the right to blame people of not celebrating my birthday
Its because all the while my birthdays were celebrated, with family n friends. So i have such an uneasy feeling this time, its my 18th birthday! sadly weekend my family didnot celebrate to me, how disappointed i was on monday at college. I walked back to hostel with my heart cracked into pieces, am i that unimportant?



i dont mind doing it late.
ALL I WANT IS JUST TO CUT A CAKE.



I bought myself a piece of cake, i cut it, and i cry.
HOW STUPID I WAS.


and look at how happy and how busy they are, right now, planning a BIG SURPRISE birthday party for 3 people... as if our final test is not on next week.

(btw, blogging for sad thing darkens my day, im so emo right now thinking of these things)

Colour (.verb) my 18!

Today is tuesday. According to my previous record, eh hemmm,
i seldom can make myself on time for the 1st class at 9pm which is a tutorial for physics.
But today, WOOOhoooo i managed. 'ladies r simply satisfied with small moves'

Erm, but it was a boring lesson...



I wonder where is him? i didnot bang into him these two days...hmm...i wonder wad should i say when we meet...

After class i online.
He chats with me thru facebook. erm, we were funny. Haha.

I wonder,
If he knows erm, erm, i m o-k-a-y with him
how will he respond?

Evenso, my hesitation is still there obstacling me from falling into a relationship.
I am 18, and I am all the while being single, 'cux of my parents.

THEY just don't like me to pat-toh. (pat-toh as in cantonese, means couple up)


They did not direct it to me but from their words i KNOW.
So, being a good daughter, i rejected few guys.
And it slowly becomes one obligation, rejecting all of them no matter who they are n what they say.

it is always more sad to reject guys who i love him too than when u'r breaking up with your boy.

I dont want my 18 to be as blank as 13 14 15 16 17 without a HIM.

Today i didnt chat to him....





I miss him, i know.